I'm Letting Go

by Kimberly Finley

I have made up my mind...

I am letting go for the last time.

I don't deserve to hurt like this,

I am tired of trying to love someone

who has no idea what love is.

I mean, it seems like no matter what I do...

the games you still play...

And they have finally pushed me and my love away.

You don't deserve to have someone like me love you...

You were lucky to have me...

And I am sorry, but that's too late for you to try to see.

I feel sorry for you...

because you don't know how to let someone love you.

Therefore you are going to have a lonely life...

And me...well, I have much love ahead of me,

Because I am moving on to bigger and better things.

To someone who'll want to love me instead of shatter me.

After today, I hope to never think of you again,

But you will think of me time and time again...

Because I was the first person who really loved you for you...

I was the first person that believed in you.

I would've done anything for you...

I would've turned myself inside out for you,

But you know I am glad that I realized the real you...

Because now...you don't look so great,

And I am sorry that I wasted my time with you again...

Thinking that we were together because of fate.

You know, what they say about love being blind is true...

When you love someone you'll believe a lie...

And that is definitely one of the things I did for you.

You almost had me believing that you had changed...

But you know, some of us may never change,

Because to change you have to grow...

And to grow you have to love...

And that is something you wouldn't know of.

I used to think that you were sent to me from up above...

But now I know that I was sent to you

to answer your question, "What was love???"

They always say to learn from your mistakes...

And I have learned from my mistake of believing you...

Because I don't think anything that you have said

in these past few weeks was true.

Why should I???

Lying is the best thing you do.

Well...I am letting go...

Saying good-bye...

And as I look...

 

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An old Egyptian Poem

 

I wish I were your mirror

so that you always looked at me.

I wish I were your garment

so that you would always wear me.

I wish I were the water that washes

your body.

I wish I were the unguent, O woman,

that I could annoit you.

And the band around your breasts,

and the beads around your neck.

I wish I were your sandal

that you would step on me!

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Twilight Of Our Love

by: Isabelle ?

Our love dies alone in its twilight years

Condemned to the empty eons of eternity

I wander through a wasteland of anguish

Driven by unanswered questions and

Tears of desires lost in the ashes

Where is the loneliness in our good-byes?

The smile that danced in your eyes?

Where is the sweet whisper that laced so intricately around my heart?

The warm kisses that delighted me through the cold nights?

Where are the cherished thoughts that danced on your lips?

The love that lingered in every glance?

So long ago, you kissed away my tears and soothed my troubled mind

Now a mournful wind blows silence into my vacuous dreams

Can nothing can be done and is nothing sacred?

My Love, your face escapes me as our love slowly passes away

Can we resurrect our Passions,

Or must I become accustomed to the silence that engulfs my soul?

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Missing You

I sing rain

Pouring seductively across November's ocean waves

An exquisite trail of notes whispering subdued apprehension

Searching the waters for your soul

Listening for moments forever

Desire rises and falls with the elaboration's of the melody

Seduction bathed in my voice

Rich tones seeking to entice

Touching the hypnotic shift of the brisk swirling currents

My song is a signature in the ocean wake

Notes shrouding my suffering like floating ice

Concealing the turmoil underneath the waves

An illusion of serenity reflects in the cold waters

Becoming a shadowy mask against its surface

Broken only by an occasional echo of disillusion

Tears both converge and sunder, casting light and dark

Emerging and sinking back into obscurity

Reaching for the human heart with a plea so strong

It overrides both mind and will

Anger and affection drain from my heart

A vast tempest consuming my distressed spirit

My mind struggling for a resolution to my stormy thoughts

Things volatile and unsteady change with every breath

I said such terrible things to you that final day

Things I thought were the truth

Things I thought threatened our relationship

Things I can never take back

You didn't understand

Giving me instead a cloudy smile in return

Shimmering into a patch of frost between us

A dwindling apparition fading into dreamscapes

I felt your love depart

A somber plume of dust drifting past my window

Leaving velvet darkness reluctant to yield to the light

Your eyes cast a cold stony sheen that terrified me

Anguish driven so deep it's unseen

Spiraling like twisted horns deep inside

Casting malevolent shadows on my face

I find my memory of you has faded

But thinking of you brings the ache and the need rushing back

Hear my song

And come back to me, My Love

Let me feel your soul next to me forever

I know

I know

I like to let myself suffer a while

Before I finally let go